Joining up with Marcy over at Ben & Me for “Blogging through the Alphabet” and super excited to do so!
Let me tell you this is NOT what I was originally going to post but I was up quite a bit of the night with acid reflux (another “A” word – woot!) and early this morning the Lord brought a VERY comforting and refreshing thought to my mind…this post is what He shared with me.
I will start with the word “ameliorate”. Ever heard of it before? I hadn’t either, but I was looking for an “A” word that might allow me to share this post with you today as we start Blogging through the Alphabet. So, using a thesaurus I started with the word “improvement” then went to “advancement” and ended with “ameliorate.”
Ameliorate means to make or become better, more bearable, or more satisfactory.
Let me give you a little background. I wrote a post not long ago “Does anyone hear her?” which brought about a pretty nasty situation with someone close to me…they didn’t appreciate that post. Some serious words were shared by this person in complete judgement of the person I am. OUCH! This sent me in to a serious whirlwind of “who am I?”. This blog post is something the Lord brought to my heart this morning in answer to this question.
I’ve shared in several instances that I was not raised in a Christian home with Christian values. As a matter of fact, we had no values. I was raised to “throw it away and buy another one”. Fix it were words I never heard. Along with many others, I’m afraid.
So as I was laying in bed this morning, the Lord brought the following memories to mind:
- I got my first savings account at the age of 13, by myself.
- I got my first real job as a hostess at a restaurant when I was 14. I continued to go to school. I rode my bike to work most days.
- I moved out when I was 17 – before I graduated High School – to live with my boyfriend at the time.
- I bought my first BRAND NEW car when I was 17, by myself.
My question, and maybe yours too…where was my mother during these VERY IMPORTANT life events? [My parents got divorced when I was two.] Unfortunately I cannot answer this question…she was never really involved in our lives.
So, THE LORD’S BLESSING TO ME THIS MORNING…even though this person said all these terrible things to / about me…AMELIORATE is a word that describes ME. ME! I am NOT perfect (I have NEVER claimed to be) but oh my goodness I am a MUCH BETTER mother than I had! (All thanks to Him, seriously.) WOW! NO COMPARISON!
- I am – and have been – there for my boys for important moments (and even “non-important” moments) of their lives.
- I was there with my son when he opened a savings account.
- I am there EVERY DAY talking to my boys about life and CHRIST.
- I would NEVER imagine ANY of the above happening to them. NEVER. If it did, I would be devastated.
So I am here, THANKING THE LORD today for His words bringing peace to my heart. I cannot tell you what this meant to me. I have (and am) trying SO HARD to be a good mother…the Lord has shown me that although I am not perfect – my heart is in the right place. And WITH HIM, we (I) will continue to ameliorate.
THANK YOU LORD!
Have a wonderfully blessed day!